Keeping It Real

2011-06-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

funny, i used to blog. i used to love it. i used to update about the things i did in my daily life.

things have changed.

i guess i kinda lost interest in blogging. a bit. despite the fact spm is around the corner. plus my midyear results was.... devastating. very very devastating.

sometimes i feel so.. despondent, dejected. i feel so frustrated with myself.

2011-06-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

i realized that almost everyone around me has that special someone.

and i don't have any. and i don't mind.

who knew that being heartless is good. really good.

2011-06-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

two weeks of holidays is not enough. i need more.

i don't want to go to school. this is sad. really sad.

2011-06-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

holidays. so far so good. i guess.

2011-06-02T01:53:00.001+08:00

i just hate it when people treat me as if i'm the bad one.

and i don't socialize like crazy. i don't go out everyday, fyi. so please stop comparing my life with yours.

i do have my limits ok :) #pleaseterasa

should i delete this blog? i need opinion...

2011-05-28T01:58:00.001+08:00

o'oh. am not happy.

this feeling is killing me.

):

2011-05-26T19:06:00.001+08:00

so far so good.

2011-04-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

hahaa diggin' the new layout? it shows that my life is so dull.

yep, my life is so boring.

i do like you today

2011-04-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

hi

look who's back. yes, me. too bad bro.

had netball tournament last tuesday. we didn't even make it to the 2nd round. unlike lastyear. pretty pretty frustrating. maybe it's because we were too focusing on winning. we realized it until the 3rd game, because on the 3rd game, we just played for fun. and we realized it was much more better than the 1st and 2nd one. so my advice, if you're in a competition, just have fun, don't pressure yourself on winning like me and my team did. i miss netball tho. it was fun.

i realized that everybody is good at something. trust me, i'm not good in anything. arts, sports, studies, musics, and other stuffs. i always let people down. that's the only thing i'm totally good at. i am so jealous with everyone. i tried to find things that i really good at, but sadly, i still can't find any. it's pretty depressing. seriously. so be thankful people.

SPM is haunting me. i told my people that i will cut my hair short if i get straight A's for my SPM. haha no, i'm not kidding.

k bye x

2011-03-31T21:40:00.000+08:00

Don't worry kids, i'm still alive. I'm just suffocating, struggling with my life.

Life's unfair, but who am i to complain?

2011-03-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'm so sorry for not updating. i think i just lost interest in blogging. shock, horror, yes i know.

bomba camp was awesome. will update more soon.

netball's tournament next tuesday. wish me luck!

2011-03-11T21:29:00.001+08:00

bomba camp for 3 days! happy holiday guys!

x

2011-03-04T23:44:00.001+08:00

my life is getting rougher and tougher. ah.

2011-02-26T00:47:00.001+08:00

Cause all that's waiting is regret

Pathetic joke

2011-02-20T23:15:00.001+08:00

I just realized that I'll always ended up being a men's bestfriend or a friend. Nothing more than that.

Funny.

fragile meadow

2011-01-31T23:36:00.005+08:00

Woman,
Tranquilly laboring at all love's cultivation
I do believe
I am fortunate to have met you

Woman,
How ephemeral our grace is in these wind stricken plains
But I do believe
It is our fate to reside here
Away from the mountains of youth and safety
In a fragile meadow
(We build our home)

Woman,
I see you bloom in this sun that we have shaped
I do believe
You are my companion and lover

Through our rains and wintry phases
I have come to love you for you

The Black Atlantic - Fragile Meadow

sucha sweet and calm song. :-) one day, IF i have a boyfriend who can sings and plays guitar, i will ask him to sing and play this song just for me. aw. HAHA (a girl can always dream)

yeah, it has been a while, are you gonna sing tonight?

2011-01-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

hi hi

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLIDAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!

Gong Xi Fa Chai, Happy Chinese New Year, and Selamat Tahun Baru Cina and Happy Holiday to everyone! finally! holiday! i'm so happy. i need a break. been sleeping on a couch for the past few days, and its not even an exam week. bloody hell. so many things that are need to be done. especially homeworks and netball's report. and i'm done with the report. i hope it's gonna be ok since this is my first time being a secretary. damn hard seyh.

so this holiday, i'm not gonna be that busy.maybe a bit. but nah, it's a normal thing, i suppose. been drinking nescafes at school almost everyday now. some of my friends doesn't like to see me drinking em' because it's not good for my health? but hey, i need energy )-: sorry guys, will try to stop. insyaallah. :-}

it's my sister's birthday, so yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENTUT <3

asdfghjkl

2011-01-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

i just don't understand when someone texted you and told you that they missed you, and you replied em' and then they didn't replied. until now.. rasa macam bodoh je. baik tak payah text kalau macam tu. just sayin'

i just don't get it.

Out of my league

2011-01-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hi

I miss blogging. 'busy' is not i would like to call a joy word to say despite the fact that i'm having homework almost everyday. I can't even manage my time, honestly. And the question is WHEN are we supposed to make our time to study since 85% of the teachers gave us homework like there's no tomorrow and asked us to pass up on the next day? Plus the tuitions we need to attend? I just don't get it. But what always happened. Life.

Will update more soon

:-)

my bestfriend is officially seventeen

2011-01-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

i want to dedicate this post to my bestest best friend, Alyafarah Zainudin.

we've been bestfriend since we were 11 years old. i still remember the first time i saw you when you're new in SK Seafield. and i still remember that we wore the same pink tropicana life's bag to school allthough we didn't even know each other. and i was even surprised that we have the same name too! then when we were 11, we're in the same class. i don't know how we became so close, but i do remember the time when we were in the toilet and all of the sudden you asked me to be your bestfriend. we fought sometimes, get pissed at each other sometimes, but hey, we're still going strong. she made me realized who i am, and she changed me to a better person. no joke.

and then when we were 12, we're not in the same class anymore. although you were busy with prefects and stuffs, we're still close. and i still remember when i came to your house and play so many kinds of games. and i still remember we played camping inside of your house. and i still remember we played barbies. and i still remember your mum baked pizza and sometimes cakes.

and then, you moved to Seremban which is so bloody sad and frustrating. but hey, we're still going strong. and i still remember i stayed at your place in seremban during holidays. and the most funny thing is, i still remember when we recorded a video of us, i was the cameraman and you were the reporter and we pretended like there's a big hurricane on its way and i must say it was an awesome video. HAHA and i still remember we played water splash something at your big garden and then we ended up washing your dad's car. HAHA. and i still remember we played guitar heroes at my house and we recorded a video which is so bloody funny. omg i miss this ;'-)

and now look at you, you're officially 17, all grown up. i just wanna thank you for everything. for sticking with me through thick and thins. for understanding me and supporting me all the way. for being there for me when i need you the most. 6 years and still counting, insyallah. :'-)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYAFARAH ZAINUDIN. ♥

rain, rain, go away.

2011-01-16T00:13:00.001+08:00

hi

i miss my blog. and my tumblr.

been busy lately. with tuitions almost everyday except wednesday and sunday. yeh, i got tuition on saturday now, surprise surprise.damn sad right. and been staying back at school a lot now. and with co-curricular activities and shits. and oh HOMEWORKS. omg i'm so exhausted. i need to get used to it. i don't wanna be friends with the word 'tired'.

but honestly i must say, i'm so tired. i always get tired easily nowadays which is not good. and not to forget, lacked of sleep. i just realized that i'm having eyebags now, but thank god it's not that obvious.

someone once told me that i've changed a bit. i've been a bit quiet lately. a bit anti-social. i don't blame anyone. maybe it's because there's a lot of things that keeps on buzzing in my mind recently. i can't stop thinking about my future to be exact and my studies.

i've been craving for a cottoncandy since last december, which is last year. not cotton candy's icecream. a normal cotton candy. would it be nice if Robert Steadman waits for me in front of the school, and surprise me with a cotton candy. omg. niceeee.

;-)

great night

2011-01-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

hi

last night was great. well spent. went to a bbq party at USJ 2. went to jihan's place first. met farina and raihan. (finally get to see my hubby/wifey which is farina and raihan is so adorable!) farina was so hyper that she made jihan's mum laughed non-stop. i can't stop laughing too! then aina came. and then mas adila came. it's been almost a year since i last saw her.

at 8.30 something, we walked together to padang. had a goodtime lepak-ing with em'. aizat was there too. it has been a while since i last saw him. played with his new ipod touch. (damn his ipod's casing so damn nice.) met other seniors too. then it rained for a while. wtf seyh, why am i telling you this again?

overall, i had a really good night. thankyou jihan, aina, farina, aizat, raihan ! honestly, i think this is a great way to start off my new year. (y)

so yeah, school is starting tomorrow, i mean today, since it's already 12 some'in a.m. i am officially a spm candidate which scares me to death by thinking about it. sigh.

so yeah, happy back to school, i guess?

:-)

Trash it, change it, mail - upgrade it,

2010-12-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

hi!

so today's gonna be my last post for 2010. needless to say, i'm not celebrating new year this year. just staying at home, sitting in front of the laptop. i'm an anti-social, remember? lol

so i guess i'll be missing 2010 a bit. just a bit. like

- my choral speaking team. the Subang Parade Competition, performing at KLGCC for the Sime Darby thingy, the MSU competition. man, it was a fun experience and i must say i'm gonna miss my team a lot.

- my seniors. jihan kamilah, ili farina, aina and others. they're one awesome seniors. and i guess i won't be seeing them at school anymore. )-:

- my netball team. i had fun. it was my first time playing netball for the school. and i hope i get in the team next year.

- my 16th birthday. went for a sleepover at anis's place and they made a surprise party for me. i was so happy. it was my best 16th birthday ever. :-)

so yeah, we're gonna say goodbye to 2010 and say HEY 2011. man, 2011 will be a tough year since i'll be sitting on an important exam which is SPM. heck yeh. so wish me luck!

and about the resolutions, nah, i think it's kinda pointless. so i'm not making any, k maybe one. i need to stop sleeping in class? especially during biology? hahah i guess so...

so i just wanna wish you guys Happy New Year!

:-)

it's 2 a.m. and i'm cursing your name

2010-12-29T02:00:00.001+08:00

hi

it is almost 2 a.m. me and my sister just finished a tube of ben n jerry's neapolitan dynamite flavoured icecream and did a yoga at the same time. my first ben n jerry's. she said it was multitasking something like that and i have no idea. k.

SISTER : aku tak suka ah chocolate tu.
ME : so don't touch the chocolate.

lol i love chocolate that's why i said that. trolololololol.

bass down low

2010-12-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

MISSING HER LOADS ♥♥♥♥

my heart is yours

2010-12-24T01:08:00.004+08:00

hi

so as you guys heard, Josh and Zac Farro from the band called Paramore left the band few days ago. i was devastated, shocked, sad, frustrated, disappointed etc. it was stated in Paramore.net ( http://www.paramore.net/blog/announcement/ )

so many people were curious why they left the band because the website didn't tell us why. until there were rumors telling that Josh Farro has a blog and he posted the actual reasons why he and Zac left the band. ( http://www.joshnfarro.blogspot.com/ ) some people thought it was really from him while some people thought that it was fake because even the news told us that it was fake. and i thought it was fake until..

there's a video of Josh confessing that the blog is not fake, he admitted that it was his blog and the blog post was from him and Zac. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVw2bZdu0IE )

honestly, this is sooo devastating. if it's real, i can't believe that hayley would do such a thing. i idolize her. i idolize the band. yes, Paramore is still a band. i'm still going to support them no matter what. but i know it's not gonna be the same without Josh and Zac. and everytime i listen to paramore's songs i can't stop thinking about them. what happened to the world...

i was enchanted to meet you

2010-12-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

i should stop wasting my time expecting something that will never happen.

)-:

If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here?

2010-12-20T02:24:00.001+08:00

hi

so it has been almost a week since i last updated. so yeah, life's treating me good. ok so far. i'm happy. maybe because i just got my birthday present from my dad (finally!). i'm one happy kid now.

so last thursday i went out with aishah, farah and sykl. we went to summit. (yeh, summit, got a problem?). we watched Tron Legacy. man, that movie was ahsome! Garrett Hedlund is so hot in the movie. i'm in love. ho yeh. we had our lunch at Subway. i had a lovely time.

and the day before yesterday, which is Saturday, i had a good time spending my day with my family. one whole day to be exact. :-)

so tomorrow, i'm going to take my SPBT books. and it reminds me that school is coming and i hate school.

wait, why am i telling you this? this is pointless. no one cares man. unless i'm a superstar or something. i don't even socialize that much, honestly. hahahah.

ok i lied about not putting songs in my blog. i need to put a song in my blog. it's pretty dull without it. and boring and quiet too! so i decided to put Dev-Booty Bounce. man that song is the shizz. she is awesome and pretty and man, her style, love it. and she's the one who sang Like a G6 with Far East Movement.

so checkitout. :-)

----

2010-12-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

can someone please buy me a cotton candy?

)-:

Lets get these teen hearts beating faster, faster

2010-12-13T22:36:00.002+08:00

i just wanna share some of my favourite videos with you. funny videos to be exact. enjoy scrolling and watching. :-)

BEST. VIDEO. EVER

baby please don't go

2010-12-13T00:33:00.005+08:00

i just removed the song that i put in my blog.

it means i stop putting songs in my blog for now

you like?

you dig?

tell me what you think by writing a feedback or etc in my chatbox if you read this. i know no one reads this. but what the heck. *wink

k la bye

hello wishlist

2010-12-09T22:48:00.004+08:00

hi

since im lifeless, and i got nothing better to do other than studying, i decided to talk about my wishlist. i mean, write, to be exact. because i can't talk in my blog, and you can't even hear my voice now. so..... k wtf. haha enjoy scrolling? :-)

Polaroid Land Camera 1000. been wanting this since 12 years old. yep, no kidding. yes, im not kidding. i don't want instax mini thingy.

~~iphone4~~. but nah, i don't think so because we need to pay hundreds for the bill every month. i heard that the bill can even reach to 600+. wtf man. people nowadays are so rich. so instead im getting....

this baby. yep. the newest ipod touch. for my birthday. so now, im just gonna wait for my dad to buy it since he's busy with works nowadays. psh...

keds champion velvet. k i have this obsession towards these kind of shoes like keds, vans, converses, toms, and even sanuks for mens are kinda nice too.

keds willow lace up. fck, isn't he beautiful? im in love.

Sesame streets from New Era caps. adorable, no? :-D

Nixon The Lodown OR

Nixon The Lodown TI OR

Nixon The Newton

nikon D7000... nah, a new lens should be enough tho...

i have no idea why im telling people this. so.. weird.

-

2010-12-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

euuurgghhh.

haih

Penang

2010-12-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

el estupido

2010-12-03T02:44:00.002+08:00

you know whats annoying?

what?

you

you?

yep, me.

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

k bye

wanna be on top?

2010-12-02T23:09:00.001+08:00

ANTM(america's next top model)

is reallyreally addictive.

been spending my time watching antm cycle 15 today

but the download shits is so slow.

why

http://allthewonderfulthings.tumblr.com/ask

ask me anything because im bored. *wink

weeee

2010-12-02T01:15:00.001+08:00

someone made my day

by saying that

unicorns do exist.

:-D

And even though you mean so much to me

2010-12-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

hm?

mmhm

heh

heh heh heh

haih

......

We knew it'd happen eventually

2010-11-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

honestly, this time, i just wanna pay attention to;

my future.

hah hah hah

heh seriously alia?

yes, im serious.

say wut

weeee

no more distractions. no more fooling around. no more lazing around. this is future we're talking about. im gonna talk about my dreams later. after im done with my spm next year. im gonna talk about my dreams and ambitions after my spm's results. insyaallah, AMIN!

period

just a dream

2010-11-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

hi

im so bored so i decided to blog about what happened on my birthday. so yeh, anis's having a sleepover at her house on 24th november. so yeh, i almost forgot that it was my birthday the next day, serious shit. hahah. then alyafarah came to subang and stayed at my house. i havent seen her for ages and i miss her so much. we talked a a lot. laughed a lot. crapped a lot. and i surprised her with AC/DC album for her belated birthday. at first i lied to her and said that the album just sold out. hek hek. hope you love it!

the next day, me and alya went to taipan to buy things for the sleepover. then went to anis's place after isyak. while waiting for others, me, alya, farah, sykl, syfqh and anis played karaoke and dancing thingy which is so AHSOME! then when others arrived we played games. then anis suggested that we all go downstairs to eat maggee cup. then farah and syakila were still upstairs because farah had a stomach ache. we waited and waited, took pictures. and some of them went upstairs which i dont know why and i have no idea why. then we went upstairs and then... BOOM! SURPRISE! balloons everywhere, they were wearing masks. and alyafarah bought wondermilk cupcakes! i was like O: HAHAA thank you guys soo much! then we ate ate ate. and then we painted each other's nails. and then they gave me a present which is so cute and i love it! and then we watched scary movie until 5 something a.m.

then the next morning. we went for a swim since anis's place has a swimming pool. i had so much fun. then after that, we had our brunch. and then... BOOM! there was a another surprise! this time its a secret recipe cake. omg weh, too many surprises. i had so much fun. thank you so much. i had the best 16th birthday ever in my life!

you guys totally made my day <3

ask ask

2010-11-28T00:55:00.001+08:00

http://allthewonderfulthings.tumblr.com/ask

ask me anything? because im bored. reallyreally bored. im not making a formspring account. im not into formspring. so yeh okok feel free to ask yeh? thanks (:

paramore

2010-11-27T01:01:00.001+08:00

i had this huge CRUSHCRUSHCRUSH on this guy and in my mind ALL I WANTED was him. until one day things were LOOKING UP and i thought he was THE ONLY EXCEPTION. but my friends told me to be CAREFUL because unexpected things always happen. one day, he ignored me and i guess IGNORANCE is his bestfriend. we fought on the phone and i decided to TURN IT OFF and i got no time for FEELING SORRY. it ended up just like that and i had to LET THIS GO and i can feel the PRESSURE and its very depressing. i guess THATS WHAT YOU GET when you let your heart win, no?

HAHA i made it all up by using paramore's songs. :D

sixteen

2010-11-26T11:39:00.001+08:00

i am officially sixteen yesterday, on 25th November, 2010. and it feels kinda weird. donno why.

and i had the best 16th birthday ever in my life, a veryvery big thank you to my girls who made a surprise for me. i couldn't ask for more. (':

and to those who wished me through facebook or text or etc, thank yoouu very much. totally made my day :D

may god bless you guys. amin (:

cassius

2010-11-21T02:16:00.003+08:00

my sister might be going to Laneway Festival 2011 in Singapore next year. She gets to see Foals, The Temper Trap, Warpaint and etcetc. and i dig those bands siaa. and especially FOALS. wtf. i dig them since last year weh. say wut la. wtfwtfwtf. so unfair. datangla Malaysia Foals!

k just so you know, i dig those kind of musics. puteri once told me i dig musics that "orang jarang dengar''. im not saying its cool like "OH IM SO COOL LA DENGAR LAGU ORANG TAK DENGAR''. =.= i think those kind of musics are really unique. different from others. really unique. nice to hear.

We'd stay up just laughing, smiling for hours at anything

2010-11-18T00:47:00.002+08:00

I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later

— Summer, (500) Days of Summer

i think im gonna be forever alone kind of person. im just tired. tired of waiting. tired of lies. tired of egos. tired of excuses. tired of being sad. tired of everything.

i just want someone to cheer me up now. make me laugh. make me smile.

i think Summer is right. (:

so hi! hows your aidiladha? mine is a bit boring. yep. didnt get to see the cows again. zzz. oh well, im so bored right now. zorro on my goat kill me. i wanna go out with my girls and my boys.

and oh btw, i think i wanna be a pilot.

bye

im dying of boredom

2010-11-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

im hungry
im starving
nobodys home
except me and blossom
no text messages
im out of credit
im bored to death
i cant drive
im only 16
and i dont have a license
i want to drive
i cant wait to drive next year
vroom vroom
someone
please take me out
zzzz

k bye

every second

2010-11-13T21:57:00.001+08:00

CANT. STOP. LISTENING. TO. THIS. I. LOVE. THEM. (Y)(Y)(Y)

crushcrushcrush

2010-11-12T19:24:00.001+08:00

its veryveryveryveryvery sad when you found out a person that you loved has a girlfriend.

well, i just found out that Robert Steadman has a girlfriend. when i found out about this, my heart was torn, ripped, stabbed, crushed and it hurts. i wanna cry. i was so frustrated when i saw their pictures and they looked so adorable together. that lady, is so pretty and shes one lucky girl.

lifes so unfair. duh of course. you cant just wish that there will be a Robert Steadman look-alike in Malaysia and he wants to be your boyfriend. you just cant. because i already did that, and it never worked. wishes never worked. wishes never came true. fmlsb...

forever alone

)":

pretty unicorns

2010-11-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

second from left. thats Robert Steadman aka Rob Steadman ♥

hi!

so yesterday was fun. went to aishah's place to watch a movie with ma girls. we watched mohabbatein. and ordered dominos. and im not a big fan of Hindustan, but i must say, mohabbatein is a good movie. a nice movie. and i get to spend my day with em'.

so now am browsing Robert Steadman's pictures. i miss him. yes i do. god im so crazy. everytime i see his videos i will smile and get so nervous all of the sudden. im so weird am i. im in love. yes, with a drummer. damn son. forever alone

the city that sleeps

2010-11-09T20:05:00.002+08:00

Nikon D60

disconnected

2010-11-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

AWAY

wont be replying texts or answering any calls.

k wait, who wants to text me anyway. HAHAH like dem u allz~~

k gotta stop saying that word. HAHA

bye!

disappointed

2010-11-03T02:02:00.003+08:00

guess what, im starting to hate November.

and yeah, November is just another fucked up month. great. and, im gonna get through this, like i always did. this is a challenge from the Al-Mighty. i know it is. and im gonna get through all of this, insyallah. and im gonna be much more stronger, than before.

but somehow, i just wanna go far far away from here and i just dont want to see those kind of faces in my life. ever. again.

period

im in a misery

2010-11-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

just wanted to share my raya pictures 2010 with my peeps.

beautiful

2010-11-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

ME : ma, lawa ah benda ni, beli kat mana?

MAMA : ha LAWAK?

ME : LAWA. LAWA.

MAMA : lawak?

ME : buang 'K'. buang 'K'

MAMA : hah?

ME : .... beautiful, beautiful.....

MAMA : ooooo....

you drive me insane

2010-10-31T00:49:00.004+08:00

im gonna be 17 next year. and one thing, only one thing that i wanted to do when im officially 17.

I WANT TO DRIVE.

yes, desperately. you know, drive. vroomvroom.

i keep saying "i cant wait to drive next year" and keep on doing this driving action thingy to my mum since lastlast month. almost everyday. i even keep on saying that to my family. and my mum eventually cant believe that im gonna be 17 and i can officially drive next year. because she still treats me like a little kid, but i dont mind. :p

thats the only thing that makes me wanna be 17. ONLY that. because honestly, growing up is not my cup of tea.

beads

2010-10-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

hi hi

so today's halloween. i spent my day doing pyssla, also known as perler beads. at first, it was kinda hard. but now im used to it. its kinda fun. im gonna use em' to decorate the board in my new room. it makes me feel so happy now since i got something to do when im bored. its kinda like my new hobby i guess? ahahah right, so this is what lifeless and anti-social kid do for living. :p

i. need. to. go. out.

k bye!

indecision

2010-10-30T01:07:00.001+08:00

i have been sleeping on a couch for almost a week now because of finals. i miss my bed ♥

a tight grip on reality

2010-10-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

hi!

so been busy with finals. and im officially free on next monday. aaaa i love the smell of freedom. *sniff

finals was.... finals. sucks to be me. because studying last minute doesnt even worth a bloody penny. sleepless night, endless cups of nescafes or coffees. eyebags. and my sleeping schedule are going bananas again. finals was soo bloody hard. with your smart classmates all over the place, im pretty much stressed. oh well, too late. should have studied long time ago. padan muka la. zzz

i havent watch movies for months now. god im so outdated. i. need. to. go. out. asdfghkl

oh on 19th october, Paramore, came to Malaysia, performing in Kuala Lumpur. IT WAS SO BLOODY AWESOME ASDFGHJKL! I CANT STOP SCREAMING AND SHOUTING AND SINGING. I KEPT SCREAMING ''I LOVE YOU TAYLOR!" HAYLEY WAS SO ADORABLE. THEY WERE AWESOME LIKE SHIZ.

i should have taken the rockzone. fmlsb. im so jealous to those who got the meet and greet passes. next time, im so gonna spend my money on vip passes. zzz.

so yeah, will upload the videos later or whenever.

k bye!

i cant find the words to tell you

2010-10-23T22:37:00.001+08:00

6 MORE DAYS AND IM GONNA HIBERNATE! ASDFGHJKLQWERTYUIOP!

will update about paramore's concert, everything on 1st november. heck yeh!

GOOD LUCK TO ALL FORM 4'S!

k bye!

this feeling has got to go

2010-10-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

hi

lacked of inspiration. thats why i havent been updating my blog in a proper way. im sorry.

i feel tensed. stressed. depressed. after one week of school holiday because of pmr, i realized that i had been doing nothing beneficial. absolutely nothing. instead i had been wasting my time doing nothing. fmlfmlfml. k im sorry. i wanna be smart. smart like my classmates. smart like my friends. i realized that this time, and seriously, im getting lazier. zero percent effort. fmlfmlfmlfml! ugh.

im so frustrated with myself. i feel abashed. i wanna make my parents happy. i wanna make them proud. but this time, i just cant. this finals, its just too late now. too late... im soorry ma, im sorry ba. im sure that my results for my finals are going to be abominable. haih. insyaallah, i will try to make a change after this. especially when im sitting for spm next year. my future.

so yeah, im sorry for being a bit soppy all of the sudden. just cant help myself. so by writing this, it makes me feel a teeny weeny bit better.

and i wanna cry because tomorrows school. ha ha ha ha ha.

and i miss the feeling when you finished your pmr. i really miss that feeling a lot. total freedom. jyeh.

k bye!

xxxx

hey, i was bored

2010-10-06T01:19:00.001+08:00

i was bored ok. now im off to bed. goodnight!

what's my offense this time?

2010-10-04T01:34:00.002+08:00

hi!

yesterday was tiring but i had fun. went to anis's openhouse at putra heights. her house was so damn big like shiz and it has a swimming pool! hahah k jakun. so yeah. took lots of pictures. had so much fun laughing with the loved ones. thanks anis for the awesome open house! :D

at night, went to sarah's. it was fun. took pictures as usual. and the food, pergh, sedap gila. and we were hungry so it was definitely worth it. but then it was starting to rain very heavily. but still, i had fun.

man, im starting to love raya a bit (:

and today did nothing. i was fasting. but i didnt wake up for sahur. okok i set the alarm already. but when i woke up to the sound of alarm, i turned it off instead and went back to sleep. typical me. lol. i break my fast with my sisters and her boyfriend at secret recipe since my parents were busy sending my other sister to melaka, which is her college. so yeah, then, i had baskin robin since i feel incomplete without any dessert. sorry sister :P

so its school holiday since the pmr candidates are taking their important exam. so yeah, GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING PMR! ALL THE BEST! :D

k bye!

short sighted

2010-10-03T01:48:00.001+08:00

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

laugh all you want because im done laughing

im a short sighted since form 2, surprise surprise

i need to wear my glasses when im using my laptob from now on

so that i dont need to squint my eyes when im using facebook twitter tumblr etc

oh btw its almost 2 a.m and im still wearing my baju kurung although i went back from sarah's at 10 some'in. so weird. i know.

will update about today later. too lazy.

k bye!

hows your condition?

2010-09-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

havent been updating blog in a proper way. sorry. been busy lately. many things just happened in a blink of an eye. but im okay now. im happy, im okay. yes i am.

many unexpected things just happened without any signs. it just happened. what i meant is, people's health. yes, our health. it can be damaged just like that. just a snap. which scares me.

will update after everythings getting better, insyaallah

take care!

k bye

#iwannaknowwhy

2010-09-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

SO TRUE! (Y)

because we're crazy

2010-09-27T12:30:00.004+08:00

HAHAH <3

them, love.

2010-09-26T19:43:00.001+08:00

♥

that boy is a monster

2010-09-26T17:58:00.001+08:00

hi hi

yesterday was tiring like shiz but i had fun ma people. love em to bits.

so first, i went to farah's first. i had fun. took lots of pictures. lovely food. lovely place. thanks farah! next, went to faris aiman's place at night. the place was crowded with his brother's friends so me and some of my friends ended up lepak-ing outside. it was fun. jon ho was there too and others too! went home 10 somethingsomething with farah's brother sending us, as in me, aizat, amir, shfq and iyad. yeah, 5 people in the back of the car. imagine that. shfq sat on iyad's lap. i feel like im in a canned sardine. laughed a lot. HA HA HA. it was a great night. cant deny the fact. thanks faris!

yesterday was totally a day to remember (:

k bye

where did i go wrong?

2010-09-25T00:16:00.003+08:00

hi hi

so yesterday i went to puteri's surprise birthday party at malisa's place. and alhamdulillah it went well. puteri was so surprised. the plan was a success. i had so much fun with my girls.

im so tired. school is so boring boring boring. zz going to two open houses tomorrow, insyaallah. farah's in the afternoon and faris aiman's at night.

so today was boring. school. addmaths tuition. oh during addmaths tuition, after all of my friends went home, me zkrh and aizat were still waiting for zkrh's mum and it was raining quite heavily. aizat brought his umbrella along and the three of us stood under one umbrella and we talked about some stuffs which is funny. totally made my day.

and eff this. i cant go to alyafarah's open house this sunday. fts sia weh. im so not in a effing mood tho. i havent seen her for months and months and sunday is the only day i get to see her and guess what, my parents are having guests on that day. eff man. god, im so frustrated.

im so in trouble

2010-09-20T00:35:00.001+08:00

its 12 something a.m. it means school is going to start less than 7 hours. goodbye holiday. i wanna cry. seriously. and honestly? i havent touch my addmath's homeworks nor my revision books. this time, im gonna die, for sure. serious shit. now im seriously scared and worried.

why am i so lazy. i hate myself siaaaaa.

future scares the hell off me now.

k bye

waddle waddle

2010-09-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

omg soooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

snapshots

2010-09-18T23:17:00.001+08:00

some photos that i took during cameron's trip months ago.

everytime i sneezed, i think of you

2010-09-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

my head hurts.

my throat hurts.

my hair is a mess.

and

im a mess.

thank you accounts project. thank you

i can tell you why

2010-09-16T21:31:00.002+08:00

im having a massive headache today. and a sore throat since last night. so now, im wearing my specs since im having a stupid headache which drives me crazy. HA HA

oh today was ok i guess. went to my uncle's place. raya raya. then went to puteri's place after zohor to finish up our accounts project. her mum made laksa and she offered me secret recipe's carrot cake. and not to forget puteri's dad's cincau. yom yom. im full. thanks puteri :D

ok, my friend, amirul just told me that ZOMG stands for Zorro On My Goat from AmirulPedia. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!

oh i feel like drinking milo. gonna make one later

oh changed my blog's song. gay kan? HA HA HA HA

k bye!

you and me

2010-09-16T18:36:00.003+08:00

heh

why why?

2010-09-14T19:28:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHAAHH!

this, totally made my day!

a blessed month

2010-09-14T18:15:00.004+08:00

EH EH, GUESS WHAT, SAYA PUASA PENUUUUUUH! REZEKI MAAN! ALHAMDULILLAH :D

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA JEALOUS?

bless my soul

2010-09-14T18:03:00.004+08:00

hello!

raya was OK. i had fun celebrating my raya with my cousins at perlis. i miss perlis so much. although i didnt get duit raya that much this year. sigh. pretty frustrating. but oh well, what to doo. hahah.

k guess what. i havent touch a book at all. serious shit. im gonna die shit. and i cant stop thinking about my accounts project. it is so confusing.

oh i bought my paramore ticket oredi. im so epi. HA-HA. god something is definitely wrong with me nowadays.

oh ya i wanna wish, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR dan BATIN!. i wanna apologize for all the wrongs that i have done. and i hope you guys are enjoying your raya as much as i do.

ME : blossom macam nak kenakan kteorg

SISTER : asal pulak?

ME : entah........ (went quiet)

SISTER : ........

somehow, i have no idea why i said that. god, im so weird.

k bye

everybody sings

2010-09-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

hi!

so im going back to my mum's hometown at perlis for raya. so im away for about 6 days i guess. so yeah, wont be updating my blog tho. lol

i reallyreally hope that paramore's tickets wont sold out. if not, i will emo. forever alone.

so i had great time today, went to parade with the family, then in the afternoon, went to maths tuition, then my maths teacher, me, farah and sykl went to bazaar together, i had fun.

selamat hari raya everyone

k bye

xxxx

lies and excuses

2010-09-04T00:51:00.001+08:00

this week was ok. normal day. school was school. im just tired and hey,

ITS HOOOOOOOOLIDAAAAAAAAAAAY!

happy holiday ! :D cant wait for raya! but i need to study for my final exams. god. im so scared.

oh try listening to Taylor Swift-Mine. i swear to god the song is so sweet! i had been listening to it for 6 or 7 times already. haha i know, this is so not me.
i think something is definitely wrong with my head or i would say, my mind right now.

k bye

just another story

2010-09-03T18:54:00.003+08:00

just another pictures that i took when i got bored. i know its ugly but what to do. im still a noobie. bye!

panda wears diapers

2010-08-30T01:47:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I SWEAR TO GOD THIS IS TOO CUTE!

im away!

k bye

being silly and optimistic

2010-08-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

i really miss taking pictures after looking at the pictures that i took from my old posts last year and months ago.

i know that the pictures that i took are not pretty but hey, taking pictures makes me happy, and most of all you can feel the satisfaction. eff yeah

man, i miss that feeling a lot im telling you.

i won't talk, i won't breathe

2010-08-28T02:21:00.001+08:00

hi

i just feel like writing. i was supposed to study but hahaha pemalasnya aku.

so im now officially on a freakin' diet. yes, im serious this time. com'on people, open your eyes. im fat. i only run for sports day, exercising for the netball team. and after sports day and sports shits, goodbye exercising, and hello food, food food.

i love to eat. eating is nice. you dont have to think about all the problems. you forget everything for a little while. just chew chew munch munch swallow swallow. easy. but now, i need to hate food. well not hate, just, you know, dont love em that much. k wtf apa ni.

so yeah, drink lots of plain waters, eat healthy, dont eat junk or fast food, eat more fruits and vegetables, and lets go for a jog, or at least do some sit ups or anything healthy at home. thats my advice to those who wants to be thin and healthy!

and thats what im going to do, i guess. wish me luck!

k bye!

you're gonna break break my heart

2010-08-27T17:43:00.004+08:00

hello

i still cant believe paramore is coming to Malaysia this october. i seriously want to go. i have been waiting for whole life for this. my friends kept telling me this is an opportunity. once in a lifetime. and yes, i almost cried yesterday. because i had this feeling that i cant go. because first, my school is having their final exams on 27 september until 22 october and the concert is on 19th october. my mum and my sister said that if i want to go, i need to be ready for the next day's exam. so yeah, i need to study!

second, transportation problem, my sisters arent sure yet. most probably they cant go. eff yeah. im so frustrated. god, i reallyreally want to go. haih.

so yeah, today theres no school due to nuzul alquran. (:

woke up late and went to addmath tuition.

gonna break my fast outside today with the family. hurah

k bye

misery business

2010-08-26T18:09:00.001+08:00

PARAMORE DATANG MALAYSIA SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! ):

my heart beats faster this time

2010-08-25T01:31:00.003+08:00

hi

final exams are coming. my school is having their finals earlier because of the pengetua's farewell party. hurah =.= i havent study anything yet. at all. and something popped into my mind today. i need to be ready for my first accounts exam for this final exam. with biology, addmath, chemistry to think about, well, i guess im doom after all. wish me luck.

falling for someone you did not even know and

saw them for only 3 minutes is insane, no?

k bye

drummer

2010-08-21T14:59:00.001+08:00

oh yes, meet Rob Steadman, MY BOYFRIEND.

sexy hair, sexy lips, sexy smile, sexy style, and the way he plays the drum is so sexy,

i just cant get him off from my mind. call me weird, but i think im so in love with him.

all the promises we adore

2010-08-19T16:57:00.001+08:00

hello

today is thursday. or i would like to say, my free day. no tuitions. well today was not that ok. after sahur, i went back to sleep. and mum went berserk when she found out that i was still sleeping and it was 7.30 something. really berserk. hahah. so i went to school at 8 something and i guess luck is on my side, there was no discipline teachers or anyone. so i was safe. hahah

so addmath is getting suckier and suckier day by day. especially when youre in Differentiation. honestly, i cant pronounced the word properly. di-ffe-ren-ti-a-tion. so i ended up saying Different while Hanna helped me by saying Tiation. oh ya, the topic is so bloody difficult. it is. im not smart ok. dont pressure me. HAHAHA.

sooooo... i have no idea what to write. im kinda addicted to Baking Life. well, games makes me happy. well, actually im just denying the fact that im actually a game freak. im a geek. i know i know. its normal. haha.

i just realized that i cant actually pay attention during Biology and Chemistry. the two subjects that i almost failed. especially Chemistry. i wonder why. this is bad. i need to study but im just too lazy to do so. haih

k bye

burn baby burn

2010-08-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! CAN'T STOP LAUGHING! (Y)(Y)(Y)

colour pencils

2010-08-13T18:29:00.003+08:00

ME : (colouring the sivik's poster) heh, mengantuk oh.

HANNA : er.... awak bukan memang sentiasa mengantuk ke?

ME : HHAHAHA bangaaang.

never felt this way before

2010-08-11T18:00:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN

or i would also like to say

HAPPY FASTING! :D

im so excited. have no idea why. and today is the first day of fasting. cant deny the fact that im kinda hungry. but its normal.

im happy and thankful. yesterday there was a Choral Speaking Petaling Perdana Competition at MSU. we didnt practice the day before. at all. and yesterday, we were the FIRST team to perform. pretty unlucky. but it went well. so much better than the performance at Subang Parade. but we thought we didn't win tho as soon as they announced the winners. third place goes to Subang Utama and second place goes to Smk Subang Jaya. we thought we didn't even stand the chance. i mean come on! Subang Utama and Smk Subang Jaya weh. they were awesome!

then they announced that the first place goes to SMK SEAFIELD! we were screaming and cheering like shizz weh. i kept screaming and jumping and hugging puteri because she sat beside me. and it doesnt stop there. Seafield also won for The Best Conductor! we were screaming like shiz again! you have no idea how happy we were. we were so thankful. we made the school proud. and all the practices, the complications had finally paid off, alhamdulillah.

im gonna miss my choral speaking team a lot. (':

k bye

xx

when it rains

2010-08-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

hi

so weekends were great. i spent my weekends with my sisters and the family.

on saturday, did nothing but i went for my addmaths tuition. at night hung out and had dinner with two sisters and her boyfriend at rasta. it was fun. played some games. laughed like shits.

and today, went to OU with the family to do some shopping. bought something. had fun. (:

and tomorrow is monday, or i would also like to say ; monDIE. so yeah. honestly, i just dont feel like going to school tomorrow. haih.

kasut vans colour maroon~~ i saw it today, and im in love with it. i waaaannt.

k bye

xxxx

You can barely breathe

2010-08-07T01:04:00.001+08:00

*oh thats a fries. haha

hi

so today was fun. i skipped school today. woke up kinda late which is nice.

and i went to malisa's surprise birthday party. malisa was surprised. the plan was a success. everything went well, alhamdulillah. i had fun. took pictures. went home. friends made my day.

oh Happy Birthday/Belated Malisa Shereen. I loveyou to bits, my hugger. <3

then went out with the sisters at night. had fun.

im so tired. addmaths tuition at 8am. that is not nice.

phone buat hal. tibatiba nak hilang semua benda kat memory card. tak pasalpasal kena masukkan gambar and lagu balik. damn you phone.

k bye.

you have no idea how much i missed you

2010-08-03T18:42:00.005+08:00

finally. i'm done with my july's test. im so exhausted. choral speaking finals was last week. we didn't get any placing. tade rezeki ot. and i screwed up and it was so bloody obvious. i feel so guilty. eff yeah. and im so thankful to have such a supportive schoolmates. you should have seen the way they cheered. so damn loud. they brought a banner too! which is sooo bloody coool. im so proud to be one of the seafieldians for once :D thanks for coming guys. it mean a lot to us.

and oh congrats to SMK Bandar Puchong Jaya, La Salle and the champion, Subang Utama. (:

and im pretty sure that im gonna miss my team, the klgcc, the performance and others ):

im so tired. i think im gonna stop being so busy now. i need to catch up on my studies. oh my sleeping cycle has been damaged tho. and i need to hibernate someday, somehow. its a must. yes it is

im so lifeless that i don't even know what is the meaning of 'love' anymore. i feel so disorganized. help.

xxx

just gonna stand there and watch me burn

2010-07-31T00:45:00.002+08:00

hi

this week was busy. choral speaking's competition, july's test. i had to take another 4 papers this monday. wish me luck

oh choral speaking was fun. there was a competition on wednesday. you have no idea how nervous i am. alhamdulillah it went well. and guess what! we made it to the final! alhamdulillah.

while yesterday which was thursday, we got an invitation to perform at KLGCC for Sime Darby. it was awesome. the place, the food, the atmosphere, yeaa~ and not to forget, someone's in love. aww im sooo happy for you love :D

but nah, to me, theres no hot dudes. sighsigh.

but i had fun. especially the part where me and the whole team sang OMG, if we ever meet again, california girls, and others in the bus. very loud weh. haha

it was a great experience.

oh subang parade choral speaking finals will be held at subang parade, this sunday. do come and support us, THE SEAFIELDIANS. :D

k bye!

you are different, so are the others

2010-07-26T02:26:00.002+08:00

different people,

different faces,

different behaviors,

different personalities,

different thoughts,

different opinions,

different interests,

but

same hearts

what heart desires

2010-07-25T03:51:00.004+08:00

obnoxious.

yes. thats one word to describe me right now. so many things happened lately. and i'm still on my way accepting the fact that something just happened to me. something which is not good. oh well, just like you said, we need to focus on our studies no?

my right hand is aching. thanks to english. i just wrote two english's essays. one is about letter to cheer up some elderly, and another one is about complaint letter. i just finished both of them. i'm so happy. i have no idea what i babbled about. i hoped it turned out to be okay.

i had been doing a lot of thinking lately. i'm thinking about taking Accounting when i finish my highschool. why accounting? i'm taking accounting as my additional subject for SPM. i know i'm not smart, but i want to fulfill my mum's desires. she always wanted one of her daughters to be an accountant. at first, i thought accounts was going to be my number one enemy, but apparently, alhamdulillah, so far, me and accounts are friends. i'm still trying my best to make accounts my bestfriend.

why take Biology then? well, mum said, you will have more choices. but, i must study then. honestly, i can't deny the fact that i really hate biology, chemistry and physics. and i just can't stand biology. sometimes i feel like giving up biology and drop that subject. but its too late. i can't give up. i need to try my best.

and i hate the fact that i'm becoming a lazy person day by day. i have no idea why. i hate it. when i think about studying, i was so lazy to do so. instead i wasted my time doing stupid stuffs. sometimes i feel scared. i still am tho. its my future we're talking about. but one thing for sure, i think i really want to take accounting, insyaallah. (:

i have no idea why i'm writing this. its almost 4 am. no wonder la.

k bye

i said i was sorry, no?

2010-07-23T17:58:00.003+08:00

hi

this week was ok. school was ok plus boring as usual. i can't stop sneezing, coughing since yesterday. but now i'm feeling a bit better. friends were always there to cheer me up.

july's test is next week. and i haven't study anything. eff yeah, i'm so gonna die tho. well, last minute is my middle name. and oh the choral speaking's competition is next week too so the teacher said that we will be skipping test for one day. yay.

oh just so you know, i don't like anyone. i'm not into anyone. i'm not with anyone and i'm not thinking about finding one. random tak? so that some of you, yeah, especially you, would stop doing those bloody faces when you see me. if you want him that bloody much, take him because just so you know, me and him are just friends. ok JUST FRIENDS. tak salah pun kan? hahah ok? (:

but hey im into Rob Steadman. thats for sho.

k bye.

dear drummer.

2010-07-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG. ILOVEYOU ROB STEADMAN <3 BE MINEEE!